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Right now, I am feeling completely lost in the work I am producing, but definately not in a good way. I've moved away from photography and trying to work with desintegrating photographic etching plates but I just cannot relate to what I am working with. I do not have any passion to watch some image I took digitally, poorly applied to an etching plate, disintegrate. I need to get back into the dark room, as soon as possible. I think for my subject matter (the traces that my Grandmother leaves behind) I need to produce work in a way I like. She is my Grandmother, and ultimately she will not be around for much longer. Obviously, I care about her, and I think that should be reflective in the work I am producing, but I dont think I am ready to "move on" to unfamiliar territory just yet; I am not finished in what I am doing.

I am in the middle of watching "What Remains" on youtube, a documentary about Sally Mann, and she is just at the point of describing how she documented the loss of her dog, by photographing the skin, bones, etc. Now I feel like I have some sort of need to document the things I have collected from my Grandmothers house (which all show traces of her life) in a similar way, and blow them up large. I still have some 16 x 20 paper which I can experiment with. I'll collect all my cameras and films together tonight and hopefully get started tomorrow morning.